My own realization that I contributed to a diverse workforce while not actually being included, can best be described as an epiphany of sorts. It was a sincerely horrible insight that put into question everything I thought I knew about my organization, its procedural and distributive justice, and the trustworthiness of the senior academics I was working with. Kuhn’s description of paradigm shifts probably comes closest to what I felt. Luckily, I am the resilient type, and after fuming, rumbling, and pitying myself for a couple of months, the complexity of the problem simply fascinated me from an analytic point of view.
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